Reflections....

I just turned 47 years old. I have raised 3 awesome children. I did it on my own most of the time. I have had moral and physical support from family and friends. But financially it has been me mostly. I think that has been a good thing because all 3 of them work very hard and understand you must work to get what you need/want. 

The past year and half has taught me a few things...  

1. I am ok to live by myself

2. I have developed a case of OCD, in that it bugs me to hell for things to be cluttered and a mess. I am finding myself cleaning the house all the time.  Not scrubbing it down, but just picking stuff up, putting it away, organizing everything and getting frustrated when others dont put it back where I think it belongs. 

3. That I dont need people in my life that put minimal effort into a relationship, whether it be frindship or romantic.  If I am in a relationship friend or otherwise I do everything I can to make that person feel important to me.  

4. That it is harder for me to retain information on things I am learrning.  This past 10 weeks I have started a new job that I am learning to do something I didn't know about in the trucking industry, and I have been in accounting class.  

5. It is harder to function on 4-5 hours of sleep than it use to be. 

Even with these things I feel I have had a successful year and half of living on my own.  There are still a few changes in the future. But I can get through those too. 

Guy Best Friend....

Ok, the probably sounds very 20something... But right now one of my very best friends is a guy..  Shaun and I have know each other since we were 16, we didnt stay in touch after high school but thanks to facebook we started talking agian and its like we never stopped. There was actually a group of us that were always together. I never lost contact with Debbie, and Andy passed away but the rest of us have gotten back together.  But its great we talk about everything just about life, the past, the future, our kids, ex's, whatever. We are moral support for each other, we can go out to a bar or somewhere and not worry about weirdo's hitting on us. It's actually fun to have a guy best friend.  The biggest thing  that has been great is that we have both gained confidence in the opposite sex agian... Him that not all women are evil and will cheat on you or just want money from you.  But some actually care anout the everyday things and only want your friendship. Me its that some guys actually want to work as much as I do, and feel its thier place to make sure that the household is supported financially. 

It just goes to show you that no matter the gender anyone can be besties...